Pushing forward my ideas about the potential of gonegirlgo ™ is really challenging me to step up to the plate and move. I have never felt so compelled to do something in my life. I am truly amazed at how this unfolding movement is itself causing me to change my approach to life. I feel my speech getting stronger. I feel my walk getting stronger. I feel my ability to connect with others getting stronger. I am truly astonished by the influence of this passion in my life.
It is confession time, though. I have a weakness that I must admit right now. I am a procrastinator. I will wait until the very last minute to get that thing done. I will think about it. I will have every intention to set the time aside to do it. I will even write it on my to-do list. (I am ashamed at how long one project has been on my to-do list. I’ve got to change this, y'all!)
People who know me and love me are very gracious to me because of my weakness. They know that the end result will be the bomb so they just let me slide. But I am tired of sliding. I want to be a reformed procrastinator. I want to challenge myself to grow in managing my time and my energy. So hence, the fourth component of gonegirlgo ™ - Be a Reformed Procrastinator.
I don’t have any answers yet that will help me push forward with this one. And that’s funny to me. The one component of this movement and my big weakness has got me at a loss of words. I guess it’s something that I need to dig a little deeper into. So my internal work will involve asking myself some hard questions. So here's the conversation that I am dreading to have with myself:
Me: Why do I procrastinate?
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Me: Because I think I can beat the clock and I put too much on my plate in the first place.
Me: Ok Zoe, I just answered this question with two issues – beating the clock and overwhelming myself. Let’s talk about this beating the clock thing. Why do I think I can beat the clock?
Me: I don’t know. I never really had this conversation with myself before. Maybe I think that because I can figure stuff out pretty quickly that I don’t have to start right away. I mean some of my best work was created at the last minute, right?
Me: Yeh, I get that, but I am driving myself crazy doing that all the time. Just because I can figure stuff out fairly fast doesn’t mean it is a healthy thing to do. I want to push forward and go, right?
Me: Yes, of course.
Me: Then work on becoming a reformed procrastinator and stop waiting until the clock strikes 12. Get the thing done, now! gonegirlgo ™
I procrastinate to the point that I scare myself. God's grace is the only thing that pulled me through some tough situations. I think about how much more I could get accomplished and reach important goals if I were to push forward and get the job. There are things that I want to do, need to do.......
ReplyDeleteVaness, let's both make a committment to become reformed procrastinators.Life is too short and full of goodness to waste time waiting to the last moment to get the job done!
ReplyDeleteIf the name was changed from Zoe to Jer'me and the movement was 'goneboygo'...I'd think you've been ease dropping on my conversations with myself.
ReplyDeletegoneboygo...you know that I thought about that already!!! LOL!! See this movement applies to us all! Now - goneboygo!
ReplyDeleteI've thought about this very question quite a bit over the years. My procrastination was especially evident when I was taking classes as an adult student. One of my professors said something very profound to me about a paper I turned in. He said, loosely translated, that I did a good job for a last minute effort and just think of much greater it could have been if I had put more effort into it. Hmmmm. Another classmate said that he procrastinates because he hasn't suffered a consequence great enough to make him stop. Hmmm again. I'm not sure why I procrastinate but I do know that I do a lot of mental prep before anything ever physically manifests - and that counts for something. Maybe I secretly like the pressure but then again, maybe I'm just a brilliant bum! LOL I don't know, I'll figure it out....... tomorrow. Erika J.
ReplyDeleteErika J. - I think mental prep counts for something too. I had a conversation with a friend after I posted this and she ask me why do we always think that procrastination is a bad thing? What if sometimes it (procrastination)was meant to happen because of a circumstance, or maybe even timing? I wonder how our culture influences our schema about procrastination. Why do we attach being a bum to being a procrastinator? I am not a bum, not to say that I have anything against them, but I have an inclination to stall my movement most times when I am not inspired. Great points...thanks for sharing!
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